Thursday, February 24, 2011

ONE DAY I JUST WOKE UP ...

One day I just woke up and realize that I am tired.. how many of us wake up  and forget what is our purpose in life , what are we sent here to do ,what matters , who matters and will we ever be happy at just being. I am not stating that I have the all the answers but I promise that there can't be a one shop remedy for a  a major situation like this. One day I just woke up and I asked myself what would happen if I was dealt a different hand in life, what if there was no adversity or no obstacles that I had to overcome ... what if everything that I believed to be true was no longer accurate. So here’s the deal and my problem all my life I have faced issues and problems or adversity that was place in my life and somehow with the strength of greater deity I, was able to make it through know my life is not different  than anyone else’s , I am pretty sure that anyone can attest to being molested , dealing with drug addicted parents ,children that didn't know any better , not smiling ,learning to be an adult before your time , trying to find my way through a tunnel with no light.

I know that someone out there has been where I have been probably not exactly my story but you know what pain looks like in a broken mirror. I have came to the conclusion that you can be so caught up in the idea of struggling and things never coming easy , that when you get to a certain place where there maybe less worrying , no tears been shed or no need to be afraid that you just might ruin it because you don’t know what  it feels like to enjoy life , because you are afraid that something will go wrong until one day you wake up and realize that everything you have been doing has been based on a series of life events that changed your life , and made you angry ,bitter and dark. Its true people are afraid of success but what do they know if you never try then you never fail. Well ladies and gents I am tired of living a life like that I don’t want it ,i don’t want to be sad and downtrodden by the world when life happens.

 Sometime things do fall apart so better things can happen. Sometimes we are shaken by a few of life curves ball so that we can put things in to perspective. So today was not a good day for me, I can’t remember when I have had a good day and that’s the problem I can’t remember .. Today I woke up and now it’s your turn. What’s been keeping you from being the best you ,What has stopped you from looking in the mirror ,What has caused you look down and more importantly what life events changed you for the worst , The bigger questions is What happen to you !